In Loving Memory of

I Miss you.
I cannot believe you are gone
My life doesn’t feel the same
How am I to go on.
You were my soul mate
You were my lover
You were my “husband”
You were my other.
We saw shooting stars
We watched stormy lights
We rode through the desert
On warm Baja nights.
You claimed you’d always love me
And that you’d always be there
You wanted a family with me
You’d build us our lair.
I don’t understand
Why God doled such strife
The cancer took you
We never finished Our Life.
You always loved me
the good and the bad
We never had one quarrel
Except for one…it was so sad.
You told me the reason
That you loved me so much
You apologized for not swimming
with me – and regretted it -
In the Mexican Gulf.
Ten years we loved each other
1999-2009
You told me I was your mate
No ocean could separate us
When we discussed our fate.
M on Facebook she smiles
that big ugly grin
how can she be so happy
except for by the grace of the gin.
You never loved her
But you adored Nick and Iz
You’d said you’d suffer forever
To be with the kids.
We made a choice
To put us aside
For the sake of the kids
And to preserve your pride.
I suffer in silence
While the world sings your praise
They ALL admire you and your talent
Yet they know nothing about your true ways.
The life we had together
The dreams and hopes and wishes
we shared
We talked of them often
But I, finally, in despair,
Disappeared.
When we put the kids first
They were the gem
How they were feeling
And what was best for them.
I am heartbroken,
I am crushed
Now that you are gone
I regret I didn’t stand up enough
For Us – in that hot racing sun.
All the prose and words in papers
and on the web claims thee
for being someone, something quite a lie
You only wanted to be with the kids
Not with she.
She put you through such heartache and strife
That horrible lie
Her relationship to you,
Written everywhere in life
For I
He told me often
Was his Wife.
This poem was written/submitted by OandO.